orange sun

already home sick this quarter

Mon, 04 Jan 2010 23:31:07 GMT

I just want to go home and play with cookie :(

resolution resolution resolution!

Fri, 01 Jan 2010 07:52:03 GMT

I have 16 minutes before 2009 is over! I must make my resolutions before the year is over so here it goes! [not in particular orders]

1. Get healthier
2. Drive safer
3. Take every opportunity as a new experience
4. Be chill
5. Do many artwork as possible [aka stop being lazy]
6. Manage my GPA above 3.0 [this is the first time I brought my GPA in a resolution]
7. Be myself

2009 in review
It was a very interesting year indeed. Met a lot of new people, lost some people, but overall I think it was very pleasant. Especially how at the end of the year we had a reunion with the middle school people hahaha.
I'm very thankful for all the people I have met, and the people that I still have as friends. I wish everyone a very safe and Happy new year!

Happy New Year!!

Kuranosuke Shiraishi

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 06:41:01 GMT

Dude... I totally thought I was done with this whole prince of tennis crap but man
I was reading this person's blog the other day... Her blog's the most interesting one I've ever read
but recently she started liking Shiraishi from Prince of Tennis so I was wondering what kind of character he is
because I think I skipped over his part when I finished prince of tennis cuz I was so interested in how they ended the damn manga

and holy crap is he hot. I want a boyfriend like him man.
And damn it!! He's an Aries too!! Just like Miura Haruma... and some other celebrity I forgot who but found out they were aries too -.-
Maybe it's a moon sign thing... hahaha

ok done anime otaku talking

Getting used to Irvine

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 03:58:32 GMT

I think I'm pretty much used to Irvine at this point
Though the weather here doesn't feel like November at all
The commercials are now turned into christmas because halloween's over
but it doesn't feel like christmas at all down here lol
maybe it will when I go back to Norcal in the summer :)

I finally finished my manifesto for my stupid "art" class
I'm so fucking glad that I'm done with it -___-
This was the most stressful thing I have ever done for a class that's not helping me in life at all
It was the most worthless and stressful crap I've ever done
Thinking our teacher was young would've made our class fun was definitely out of the question...
most anal teacher i've ever had. more anal than the granny teachers i've had
can't wait until i'm done with that class -___-

i don't know if i should take sculpture next quarter...
though it's the only low div art class that i haven't taken yet.
it's so stupid they're not offering 30b in the winter quarter when everybody takes 30A in fall
Ugh stupid UCI

oh well.
so glad today is over.
now i'm so tired to the point i'm hyper that i want to talk to someone
but everybdoy has midterms or papers :((((

i'm kind of glad i'm not that busy this quarter but it feels a little lonely LOL
i need a housewife though... i need someone to cook for me when i don't feel like it! T__T

Ayumi Hamasaki

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 06:37:12 GMT

I think everyone knows at this point how much I love ayumi
But I never realized how glad I was to actually seeing her live until I saw this video
I was watching the RULE video for a-nation that I saw
but man, it's so different when you go see her live
She's just so amazing

Someone commented that this possibly may be her best song
Which I feel like I could agree to it just because this is possibly what made her so great
For me it is since I feel like this song actually changed my life
When Ayumi when down on her knees
I feel like it looks weird in the video, but at the live
It was so awesome. It felt like I've never seen anyone as expressive as she is
Though I thought she's starting to sound like an enka singer these days

This video just made me think about why I love ayumi so much
Her lyrics play a major role
since the way she arranges her words is so beautiful
that her simplicity extracts the best out of the japanese language
But also I think her voice is just amazing
The way I would describe it would be is almost like a feminist voice
Just because it's really strong yet it still has the voice of a woman
She changed so much from her weird high pitch voice she used to have

Ok done ranting. I need to do hw.
[And I finally saw the song that I totally for the title for! TO BE!! I can't believe I couldn't remember that was TO BE!! Grrr...]

Sometimes I hate being Japanese

Wed, 21 Oct 2009 03:20:06 GMT

It's not like I hate my culture
(though there are somethings i don't like. but what culture is perfect)

Of course new quarter, new school, new what nots
You meet a lot of people and you want to be friends with everyone
(or you try)
This thing that I have noticed actually have been bothering me for a while now
Every time I introduce myself
Every single person is like "Oh you're Japanese. So cool."

This overdose of animations and Japanese culture flooding the media
Apparently made the Japanese ppl look so "cool"
It's not like ppl go around saying "oh you're chinese? how cool!!"
(I don't think I've actually heard of that, except MAYBE "oh you're an exchange student from China? how cool")
It might be because there's not many Japanese population
compared to the Vietnamese, Chinese and Korean population
(actually if you compare land mass wise, and actual population, I guess Japanese ppl are rare)
It still bothers me
I feel like some of the friends I have now stick to me because I'm "Japanese"
I have more connection to this anime world that their own culture doesn't bring out
I have more connection to the language of the samurais and the ninjas

*sigh*
If people are being "friends" with me because of that
I rather be something else.

Everyday Life

Mon, 19 Oct 2009 04:16:45 GMT

Our fan is so gross that it has cobwebs all over.

Jk, it's our halloween decoration because we're art nerds.

I need to take care of my body better...
Realizing the oldness of this body now :((
Don't fall asleep with contacts on... floss my teeth... stop eating so much sodium... etc.
But I have a feeling I'll keep on doing this until I graduate from college
[or maybe until I die]

School is okay so far... I guess
I have nothing else to do except ignore homework as much as possible
and end up updating my LJ that I haven't been using
I miss dance so much :((
I hope Jen gets time as soon as possible.
Though we were thinking of going to the one in UTC
I don't think that's possible because there were 10 yr olds that were busting out

triple pirouettes without even stumbling

hrmmmmmmm

Ridiculous... Ridiculous... Ridiculous...

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 22:11:24 GMT

www.indecisionforever.com/2009/10/15/jon-stewart-on-the-gops-support-for-gang-rape/
This is fucking ridiculous.
This was on James' facebook post and it made me so fucking angry
I didn't watch this episode last night cuz i thought Jeff Dunham was on the Jay Leno show
but apparently he's on this night [which sounds exciting]

But either way this is ridiculous!
How the fuck do they think that this kind of bullshit is ok!?
I don't understand any part of the GOP's thinking!!
They think that it's not a big deal that you women gets gang raped
and they say it's not part of their job to deal with it!?
The fuck! That goes all the rights of women, or even just a person!
Does our tax go for this contract to be allowed!?

This made me hate the world like crazy

Oh well.
I guess we all knew how dumb the GOP's are...

Art history paper due tomorrow.
Haven't done the reading. Haven't done any writing.
I'm excited for tomorrow :))))

[/edit]
news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20091015/ap_on_re_us/us_interracial_rebuff
more idiots.
What do you guys think?? :))

RIP Ms. Edwards

Thu, 15 Oct 2009 05:14:07 GMT

Interesting
So my original topic of the day was about girls and beauty
But instead I found out about the death of my middle school/high school art/sculpture teacher
She was a crazy person, but atleast she has the kindest heart
I'll truly miss her. She was a fun, kind person.
I had a great time in her class.
Rest in Peace

On to my original topic.
It interested me how Jean Kilbourne appeared in my academic life again
I saw her film Killing Us Softly 3 in the class of women of color in the US
(that might've been the most interesting video I saw in that class)
I enjoyed it a lot because it seriously opened up my perspective of how we think so lightly of the advertisement industry
and how low they bring women down
It appeared again on monday in my visual art class
The same exact film, and the same exact scene
Though this time, instead of women's avocate
I was more interested in of the influence of what art can bring to the world

No matter how much I don't want to admit the fact that
this disgusting industry is actually art
It surprises me of what little we think it actually do
just by glancing over it
and how big of an influences it actually bring

Anyway done with the thoughts
I'm writing my artists statement now and I am confused about art more than ever

Love-Hate art man. Can't do anything without it though.

because i dislike homework

Tue, 13 Oct 2009 22:03:12 GMT

Nothing much exciting has been happening these days
Fall is finally here [i guess. even though it's supposed to be hot again this weekend in Irvine...]
I miss taking drawing classes even if I bitch like crazy about them once I take it
At least I enjoy taking it compared to any other reading/writing classes like I'm taking now

My mother just sent me a lovely package with a lot of japanese candies
Thank you mom! :))

It's week 3 and I guess I should start writing my paper

I just want to be left alone
I want to run away to a place that no one knows me
Even if everyone accuses me saying that's the wrong thing to do
But my heart can't stand this any longer
I need no tomorrow

Can I cry as much as I like? Until my tears dry out
If I cry now, the snow will make my tears disappear
Please help me

Yes, I do not regret anything
In any circumstances I lived for today
To the point there were no footprints or reminants
If the candle melts down and the light disappears

Can I scream as much as I like? Until my voice no longer remains
If I scream now, the snow will forgive me for it
Please let me do it

I just want to reach out my arms and collect the shining snow
But why... they're so fragile...

Can I cry as much as I like? Until my tears dry out
If I cry now, the snow will make my tears disappear

Can i scream as much as I like? Until my voice no longer remains
If I scream now, the snow will forgive me for it

Can I cry as much as I like? Until my tears dry out
Can I scream as much as I like? Until my voice no longer remains

Can I cry as much as I like?
Can I scream as much as I like?
Until the snow stops...

POWDER SNOW by AYUMI HAMASAKI

Hello Life

Sat, 26 Sep 2009 20:14:54 GMT

So week 0 is over~.
I'm kind of bored this week, but I feel like my art history is going to be busy and boring like always....
Not very hard so I guess it's all good.

Surprisingly not that homesick as I thought I would be.
Two other girls from Norcal that lives in my house are already homesick.
All the other people in my house are pretty much around here.
So it's not surprising that we're the only ones would be homesick.

I think today, we'll only have two girls in our house.
All the other girls are Jewish, or staying back in their home.
Something like that, either way very quiet night it shall be tonight.

Tripped over the sidewalk last night.
Looked like a drunk, since a whole family saw me trip over, and drop my long board
and almost slamming my face on the concrete.

Very wonderful.

i [sometimes] hate the world

Fri, 26 Jun 2009 00:50:57 GMT

Posting and ranting on LJ for once.

i hate the world right now because it just deleted my post. Either way this is when I freakin hate the world. Michael Jackson, the king of pop just passed away and the whole world is sad about it. So once this famous person dies we all give so much respect to him. Life's a bitch. Why couldn't anybody give him more respect that he deserved? The paparazzi loved him for being a human being making stupid mistakes like any other bastard on the street. Yes I do agree that a lot of the things he has done is quite bizzarre and strange, but what he has done in his life and living a celebrity life for so long, I think that man deserved a lot more respect that he did when he was a live. It's like the moment he dies people stop talking shit about him, and only talk about what a great man he was and the stupid music industries sells CD's to commemerate his death and so people won't feel as bad anymore because they're actually listening to his music now instead before they only talked shit about him not knowing what great things he has done before. He deserved way more respects than that. Why couldn't people appreciate more of what he has done when he was still alive and apperciate what achievements he has done. Yet people are bastards therefore they bring him down to the lowest being possible, and once they die they give them a round of applause. This is why I hate the media so much for bringing down the a great man, and only giving them credit after they die. Because death is something they can't really poke fun at anymore. Let's see if they're still laughinng now.

Either way knowing Michael Jackson, if he's truly dead or not I don't want to be rude but, I think he's still alive out somewhere.

: ')

Mon, 01 Jun 2009 03:34:22 GMT

It's always nice to know that
no matter how painful things are
to the point i feel like i can't breathe no more

it's always nice to know I have friends that can make me smile
to tell me it's okay, things will be fine
and reminds me that good times will come after bad times

Wed, 27 May 2009 00:06:19 GMT

"A marriage between a man and a woman is traditional. Anything else is abnormal and strange. It's a good thing prop 8 passed."

*sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh*

カプカプ

Sat, 09 May 2009 07:44:24 GMT

こころのなかには　　うみ　がある。
ボクは　そこに　　すんで　いる。
うみが　なみだに　　なるときに
かぷかぷかぷかぷ　　やってくる。
うみが　しずかになる　ひ　まで
ずっと　いっしょに　いてあげる。

There is an ocean inside your heart
That is where I live
When the ocean becomes tears
I float along and come to your side
Until the day the ocean becomes quiet
I will stay by your side

-words by Mayumi Takahashi
art by Tomomi Nakamura

man i haven't posted forever...

Wed, 15 Apr 2009 17:27:07 GMT

The wind is so strong these days!
The umbrella for our table in the backyard totally flew off.
I don't like this cold weather : '(

So De Anza's spring quarter started... and my art classes are totally worth more than 3 units.
I do more work in my art classes than my 4 unit art history classes T__T
Lame lame, but that's reality for you I guess.

I'm kind of disappointed in my art class for this quarter though.
My oil painting professor is a really cool guy, but I'm hoping I won't tick him off to the point I'll get beat (hahaha)
My int. drawing class on the other hand... is a disappointment.
The professor is an okay person... not hard, not easy, just a lot of work. Don't really feel any improvement though.
What I was really disappointed in was the fact that there's no talented people!
My first drawing class I took at De Anza, there were so many talented people.
This is freaking int. drawing, and over half of them, I think to myself "why are they in this class??"
It's not the problem of if they can use the medium or not, it was more why can't they even draw?
(actually I thought it was a problem when half of them didn't know what's the difference btwn soft pastel and oil pastels -__-)
I don't know why they're in the int. drawing class... I wish there were more talented people.
I only saw 1 or 2 in the class this quarter.

So that's my report of my spring quarter so far!

-Maii

sorry this was really something i really wanted to post

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 04:46:21 GMT

Senator Charles Grassley, the top Republican on the Senate Finance Committee, made his comments on the Cedar Rapids, Iowa, radio station WMT on Monday.

"The first thing that would make me feel a little bit better toward them (is) if they'd follow the Japanese example and come before the American people and take that deep bow and say, I'm sorry, and then either do one of two things: resign or go commit suicide," Grassley said.

"And in the case of the Japanese," he added, "they usually commit suicide before they make any apology."

http://www.insurancejournal.com/news/midwest/2009/03/17/98788.htm

ehhhhhhhhhhhh........ AIG's an idiot for sure... but this guy... I dunno man. Either way I cracked up when I heard this guy talking

is it just me....?

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 02:40:03 GMT

I think I get crankier in the spring. Maybe it's the hormones.
It's always the hormones fault

wahahhaa （°∀°；　）←panicking about finals

[not a good time to be sick damn it!]

-Mai

Too Clean

Mon, 16 Feb 2009 07:06:13 GMT

I looked at my artwork today.
I was satisfied, and happy that I didn't give up half way thinking it wasn't good enough or how it had to be good on the first try.
It looks good.
A drawing of a chair, with a box on it. It looks like a chair.
The cushion looks comfortable, and the atmosphere I gave looked lonesome but a chair a person would want to sit on.

But I noticed staring at it for a while
I feel like my artworks are too clean.
Too clean to the point it's actually disgusting
But when I try to dirty things up, it never works
It's not my style

But what is my style? I'm still a becoming artist.
I don't have a concrete style that I created myself
But I can feel myself saying this isn't you, this isn't you.
Then why am I disgusted at this clean feel my artwork gives off?

I'm not sure what's wrong with me these days....

-Mai

Rino Nakasone

Sat, 31 Jan 2009 08:01:57 GMT

So I actually took my time to watch the beat freaks to see what Katie was talking about. I had to admit they were pretty good, and they all have intense muscles. But I also have to say I did not know Rino Nakasone was in the beat freaks. Dude I did not know a Japanese woman can be THIS successful in the dance industry. She's a FULL Japanese woman from Okinawa, that speaks fluent english and dances down into the ground. Also she's Music from Harajuku Girls, and ex-member of super moneky's with amuro namie. Holy crap she's crazy.

I actually had no interest in her when I found out she was Japanese. The first thing that popped in my mind was that she was Japanese American, no way she's an actual Japanese chick from Japan. But I have to say, being born in Okinawa has to do with a lot of things though. Most of the famous singers, dancers, and artists are from Okinawa. Man if I ever live in Japan and have a kid, I'm raising him/her in Okinawa damn it!! Actually when I found that she was a Japanese woman that moved from Japan to America when she was 19, that surprised me a lot. She's probably only have been here for 10 yrs or so, yet her english is perfect. Crazyyyyy!!!

Her being full Japanese meant a lot for me. I know race and all that shouldn't matter, but she represents what I am though. A Japanese person that understands both culture equally. Katee Shean also is a Japanese woman, but she was Japanese American and I don't think she's been to Japan or knows the culture well. So in a sense when Katee Shean was on SYTYCD it made me happy that she represents the Japanese American culture, but since I'm not a very big part of it I didn't really feel much about race issue. On the other hand, Rino inspires me. She crossed the Pacific ocean, to a country that she probably barely knew the language when she came here, and achieve her dream big time. She danced with Britney Spears, Mary J Blige, Missy Elliot and what not, and had master classes with also Shane Sparks and Dave Scott (one of the known hip hop choreographers). To have someone like her out there representing the Japanese people is such a great thing. I'm not a crazy fan of the harajuku girls [though I think she ended her contract... not sure], and what not but seeing how successful she is [and how crazy good she is with hip hop...] is a great representation not just in dance, but in general. How many Japanese people do you see in America that are actually this successful? Utada Hikaru tried, but ultimately kind of failed. It's not a big success to the point that everyone knows about her, but she's successful enough in the dance industry. Plus being 31 and in a competition like that is pretty crazy.

Btw. I'm not a very big fan of the show ABDC. It's interesting to watch, but I have to say I like SYTYCD way better than this.

-Mai

LOVE LETTER

Wed, 14 Jan 2009 06:28:42 GMT

So I did not expect that Otsuka Ai's new album was out. I was so mad that I actually didn't even know this album came out like a month ago -A- I listened to it, and I have a lot to say about it
She is!! I seriously love this album!! Love Piece was iffy for me ... I liked few of the songs but it was still meh. And her recent singles were pretty bad in my opinion. I still listened to it hoping she can make a come back. She totally did with this CD!! I think this is like my favorite album now.
- Love Letter
When I heard this song I was so surprised. It totally sounded like the Otsuka Ai that I fell in love with. It wasn't like Kurage Nagare Boshi, where I was like, I like it but this isn't what I fell in love with. Somehow her voice and everything was perfect for this song. My favorite song.
-Her dumb songs
Hahah it's not as great as her old ones... [ramen is still the best] The weirdest one was Shachihata. I don't even know if that song is even sung by her.
-360°
dude... this song was WEIRD. I liked it hahaha. I posted the video of this song at the end of the post because.... holy crap it was TRIPPY. I felt like it was those acid music videos from the 70's or 80's. It was HELLA trippy. I don't know what the heck she was on when she made that music video but it's good stuff hahahhahaa. It kind of had an ayumi vibe to it... but with like extreme twist of Otsuka Ai's twisted mind. Aside from how weird the music and the video was, this was probably the main reason why I like this album so much. This song is basically about the feeling "嫌い(kirai)" [hate]. I think that word in Japanese is so strong. I guess the word "hate" is strong anywhere, but in this case I felt it was hella strong. The song is basically about the feeling where you like someone to the point you hate them. I like how she says "ferris wheel, merry-go-round I love you, but I hate you". The idea of how feelings go around and around is so interesting.
-Ai
This is the song that supposedly represents the whole CD.... the reason why I kind of don't like this song is because it somehow.... I guess the best way to describe it is commercialized. It's good, but it's not great. It kind of is Otsuka Ai, but I feel like she's not putting out who she is like she did for Love Letter. It's an okay song for me. Kind of reminds me of Renai Shashin.

Overall I really liked this album. The theme was basically feeling of people when they fall in love, which is really general but I feel like she executed it well. [I'm missing Ningyou though... I have to find it later... T___T] The feeling of falling in love, the feeling of hate towards the same person you love so much, the feeling of achieving that love. Btw who else have heard this album? Was it just me or was the Kurage, Nagarebosh for this album re-recorded and SPED UP like crazy? P.S. She looks like Nodame in her cover

Trippy Otsuka Ai

-Mai

New Year's Resolution / Review of 2008

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 02:59:44 GMT

I always do this but I was totally dead today and took a nap from 2 to 6 today [yeahh fail.] I was gonna do my traditional clean the whole room event but somehow I was too tired.

So atleast I'll do my new year's resolution.
1. be a safer driver [always]
2. study harder
3. be true to yourself
4. work harder in dance
5. become a healthier person
6. keep my room cleaner
7. live life like there's no tomorrow

2008 was in a way such a crazy year. World news, what I remember would be things like Michale Phelps taking home 8 gold medals at the olympic, a black man was elected as president, the economy crashed like crazy, and so on. But in my life as well it was pretty crazy. Moved into a new house, saw a Glay concert, met A LOT of new people @___@, went to a lot of places, got 3 hamsters but 1 died, performed for 9 dance classes [that's a record for me] and still lived, took a shakespeare class [ahahhha], going clubbing for the first time [on a gay night hahhaa!!].... crazy crazy. Overall I might've had some hard times during this year but I'm greatful for every hard and good moments I've had this year. I'm also greatful for all the people that I've met, and the people that still hangs out with me lol! No, I really appericiate all of you for being such great friends! I thank you all : )

I hope everyone will have a wonderful year next year!!!

-Mai

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 10:14:08 GMT

today's disaster:
-2 carpet stains[i think it's because of my randomly jolting left hand...]
-the most embarrassing dance of my life recorded by 3 ppl [it better not be on fb!!!]

today's gain:
-Henry's middle and high school picture [dude you should've seen when kiku saw those pics... she literally fell to the floor]

Sat, 20 Dec 2008 08:03:11 GMT

epic.
[btw if it doesn't work just click the video. It'll jump to the page]

I'M AN IDIOT

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 07:13:59 GMT

So I was debating if I should watch Psycho or Dirty Harry today since I had to return them this weekend. I also had Charlie Chaplin but my mommy wanted to watch it with me so I had to put that off. Psycho or Dirty Harry. On a very cold night, by myself alone in my own room. My mind somehow said "I want to watch a scary movie. Ppl say Psycho is a scary movie, but it's probably not that bad right??"

HOLY CRAP IT WAS.

The infamous shower scene. I shrieked and was on my toes. I skipped the 2nd killing. I was way too scared to watch it. I have to say Hitchcock is a genius... scary movies today aren't that scary compared to this one. I usually don't like scary movies, but I like those psychological movies, including scary ones. This definitely was one of them.... And Anthony Perkins did a really scary job with his role. He was way too creepy that it actually fit the role. The ending was pretty good too. Movies usually have crappy endings because they don't know how to end it but the end creeped me out than anything.

I still think I'm an idiot for watching Psycho all by myself. I should've dragged my sister to watch it with me or something. She probably would faint if she understood movies.

-Mai